Lack of Integrity

Inwardly they begin to change but to keep the peace play an outward role. This, by nature, is a lack of integrity (the inner self integrated with the outer self) and will be the end of you. Healthy people are integrated and unhealthy people are not. Donald Miller, Storyline Blog

Reading this brought about the reality in where I am with this journey.

It’s funny, when you listen closely, you find at times there’s a recurring theme that speaks to you from various sources in a short period of time.

Why Do You Do What You Do?

Two years ago my life was an emotional roller coaster.

I was challenging myself to always do more, to wear more hats, to climb the corporate ladder faster, to be involved in more; thinking I could handle the demands. All of these areas were tugging at me from different sides.

I was focusing on, and seeking, the wrong things. I was living in the past and looking to transform the future all while glossing over the moment that matter most, the present.

There was no purpose for my daily motions, nor quest. I was living in the confides of what society had built trying not to bump up against the walls of the path laid out for me.

Calming Your Head Chatter

Does head chatter control your day? Does it gloss you over the present moment going through the motions of your daily to-do’s, tasks and projects? Does your head chatter strip you away from an intimate conversation blocking you of any kind of deeper connection?

It does for me. In fact, sometimes it can be so bad, so far off course, that the head chatter creates stress and anxiety within me.

In reality, all of this (head chatter) stems from an imaginative place. The head chatter is what we create, or imagine, around the source, to be true, that causes the pain.

We take ourselves down unnecessary rabbit hole after rabbit hole.

Lean Into It

Do you ever catch yourself thinking about the interests you abandoned or the ones you want to pursue, the projects you wish you could work on, the things in your community you wish would change or the art you’ve been putting on the back burner because life is just too busy?

Family, job, household, school, community; those hats you wear that eat at your days, weeks and months. But yet, you lie in bed thinking about those things you wish you would be doing and making time for.

Just Listen

Taking care of yourself first impacts those around you.

Not only how you present yourself to others evolves, but what and how you be becomes contagious. It influences the environment in which you live.

When you wake up each morning committed to doing the things that make you a better version of yourself than you were the day before, slowly it begins to be recognized; especially with those you are closest with.

Though, it’s not about being recognized, it’s about being your honest, authentic and best version of yourself; your truth.

Flex Your Mindfulness Muscle

You can’t control what comes up in your head.

In turn, we end up judging ourselves, harshly, which ultimately transcends into how we act.

All of this stemming from a mysterious fictional void. We take something that’s not real and allow it to make decisions on our behalf; decisions on how we act, how we present ourselves and who we become.

Again, we can’t control what comes up in our head. What we can control is how we handle it.

Humor in Addition to Vulnerability

I enjoy humor and being silly. I love to laugh and especially love to make other’s laugh. Making other’s smile through humor is probably one of my favorite character traits about myself.

I enjoy taking an awkward moment, an uncomfortable setting, or a moment where there’s a void of silence and throw in some humor to ease the tension in the air.

Humor is this release that pulls people together. It loosens our grips. It lets our guard down to open up to our surroundings allowing connectivity to occur.

Keeping that shield on and laughter aren’t possible at the same time. The connection is weak. It’s either one or the other.

What gets interesting is this line…

Become More Present

Do you think about the day ahead, the deadlines, projects, meetings; while driving? Do you worry and stress over an email you sent days ago that didn’t get a response? Do you feel the urge to check your phone while in a middle of a conversation or when spending time with your family?

Distractions are all around us. We fixate on the past and the future at the expense of the present. Tweet this

I would think about why certain things happened. My meandering mind on the past then created scenarios on how to steer the future.

Release Your Inner Ramblings

Writing is a major component of my self growth journey. It’s the foundation of being intentional.

Though, as much as I’d like to, I don’t write every single day. I set out to do so, absolutely, but with the longer summer days and beautiful weather we find ourselves outside longer, playing. Therefore my writing isn’t as consistent.

Lately, however, as I’ve been neglecting it it’s also what I’ve been needing most.